What a Relief!

Oh my god, I am so relieved!  After spending Friday night in the hospital...my first hospital stay in adulthood...I was finally checked and cleared for any abnormalities in my heart.  Seriously, thank god.

I can't believe that I lived for years worried about this problem and I know that others are living in fear, too.  My hope today is that someone else out there may read this blog and go and seek the answers that they are entitled to.  I know that for me, I finally got to a point where I just had to have an answer, even if the news was very grim.  I do believe that not knowing is the worst part.  How many days did I live filled with unnecessary stress and fear?  I know that I have issues with anxiety, but I can tell all of you that I was truly scared of dropping dead.  Really, so sad.

I think everyone knows how much I love Kristen, but really I feel like she has saved my life.  Because of her understanding and love I was brave enough to finally speak up and get some help.  When my mother asked me why I had never said anything about the pain I was having, I actually told her that I didn't care about my life so much before Kristen.  But now that I have found her, I want to spend every moment loving her the way that she deserves to be loved.  I feel brand new.  I feel like I have been given another chance to live my life to the fullest with someone by my side who wants the same things and is motivated to follow their heart as well.  I feel like we can do anything!  I know we can.

So this blog is written today for everyone out there who has a worry and needs to get help.  It doesn't have to be related to chest pain or even any medical problem.  Maybe you just need an answer to something nagging at your consciousness.  I hope that you may find the courage to step forward and find your answer.  I hope that you may have that special person in your life that motivates you to do the difficult things that make a difference.