When I read blogs it is for entertainment...maybe sometimes a way of keeping up with a friend's happenenings, but it is not often a way of really connecting with people. I wonder in anyone writes a blog hoping to really connect.
When I sat down at the computer this morning, the first thing I thought about writing was not a funny anecdote, and certainly not something for my fellow blogger's entertainment. I thought about writing something honest.
As of late, I have been dealing with issues from my childhood...quite frankly, confronting some of those demons that many of us have, and also those that are specific to my own upbringing. Kristen has been an absolute saint! She has listened to me open up, held me when I cried, and supported my decisions every step of the way. As I travel along this journey, I find myself facing a lot of pent up anger. I am truly having feelings that I have never had before. Initially I thought that because of my love for Kristen, any and all feelings I am capable of were forced to come to the surface...that I could not love with all of my heart if I was shutting off part of my heart. And this still makes sense...but...I am so frustrated! The anger that I have held inside for so long in now coming out sideways. I am not ashamed to say that I need to figure this out...I really want to talk to a professional. Any suggestions?
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